Independency, is that too much to ask for?

I don't know about your lives, but mine is full of cynical people that believes just whatever they want. I get so mad at people telling lies all the time, they don't even know half of the truth. I've always been the leader within a social group, but why should people lie their lives in my hands just based of that? Why can't people just make their own decisions based on their own needs? Stop plaining about how I act and am, continue on with your lives! I don't care! Ignore my decisions! They are only for me and not for you to care! But obviously people aren't that independent as they think.

I'm pretty down right now, I always am whenever I come here and write. Sometimes I wonder if it's not eaiser for me to just dissappear from people's lives. How would they be if I've never existed in their lives. I do wonder. I wish people wouln't depend on me too much. Especially if they depend on me to make them happy. Do you ever face the same problems as me? Do let me know, it might keep me sane for some time more...

Love,

Paeonia